Albertine Simonet
“I wondered whether the girls I had seen lived in Balbec and who they might be. When the focus of our desire singles out a tiny human tribe, whatever may bear upon them in any way sets off an emotion in us, which then becomes a wondering daydream. On the esplanade I had overheard a lady say, ‘Yes, she’s one of the friends of the Simonet girl,’ with the smug superior knowledge of the person in the know who says, ‘Yes, he’s very tight with the young Duc de La Rouchefoucauld.’ I was instantly aware of a look of curiosity on the face of the person being told this, a quickened interest in somebody who was so favored as to be ‘one of the friends of the Simonet girl.’ It was clear this was a privilege not open to all and sundry. Aristocracy is relative: there are all sorts of inexpensive little resorts where the son of a furniture salesman may be the arbiter of all things elegant, holding court like a young Prince of Wales. Since that moment when I first heard the name ‘Simonet,’ I have often tried over the years to remember how it must have sounded there on the esplanade, in my uncertainty about its shape, which I had not quite noticed, about its meaning and the identity of this or that person to whom it might belong: full of the imprecision and foreignness we later find so moving, when our unremitting attention to this name, with its letters more deeply imprinted in us with each passing second, has turned it (as the name of ‘the Simonet girl’ was to be turned for me, but not until several years later) into the first word to come to consciousness, whether on waking each morning or after fainting, even before any inkling of the time of day or where we are, almost before the word, ‘I’ itself, as though the one it names were more us than we are ourselves, as though the first respite, always to end after a few moments’ oblivion, was the respite of not thinking of it.”
-Marcel Proust, In the Shadow of Young Girls in Flower (1919)